Beware of the mid-20's mind fog?

Based on the title, it should be fairly obvious that I'm scraping the bottom of the barrel in terms of blog subjects....(Actually, it could have been much, much worse: Other blog candidates were:

(1: The intricacies of my right outer ear
(2: My outstanding hospital bill (50 dollars my A$$, buckaroo!)
(3: Work Can Be a Very Constructive Activity
(4: Johnny Tremain: A Fine Book

Anyway, I'm currently entrenched in the Friday afternoon daze, and thus, I won't be providing my usual epic of zany emotions and spectacularly pseudo-ludicrous ....ummm......jive!!..??.........erm...???......

And herein lies part of the reason why I named this entry, "Beware of the mid-20's mind fog"......I remember just a few years ago, when I just got out of college, although I didn't know as much as I do now, my mind just felt more hungry, more knife-edged, more vibrant, more.........umm...MORE.............!!only 3 synonyms!!!! O my God!!!

Jeff has taken his own life........and was rebuilt by the eternal Tabernacle....and now Jeff is back to talk once again about the mid-20's mind fog!

......unless you watched the movie Zardoz, you will NEVER understand what the hell I just talked about...LOL....anyway, enough noodlin'....Here's the crux of my problem which I am growing more keenly aware of:

My mind is growing bored, in general, of many things that I once derived a lot of pleasure from. Video games just don't excite me the way they used to, especially in regards to the current trend of increased commercialization. (Most video games are merely part of a movie's or sports hero's marketing campaign..It's so corporate and devoid of imagination...yech!...Bring back the good ol' days of video games in the late 80's/early 90's, when designers had to continually come up with original ideas, and arcade games were this unique kind of hyperspeed/surrealistic violence.....Absolutely brilliant art..) I used to really thirst at the prospect of a new academic endeavor, like learning a new computer programming language, or reading a cyberpunk novel, or doing some computer art....However, these days, I find each of those activities kinda shallow and boring.......

It's not that I haven't found new activities to take their place: I have...The problem is that I just don't the mental passion, the fire that I used to have.

Maybe it's not a problem at all, maybe it's natural individual evolution. Maybe its simply that I am more satisfied in my life, and don't really have this desperate need to learn stuff as a remedy for a lack of self-confidence.....I dunno....

Wait, but there's more: I remember when I used to go to parties where everyone was older than me and would just chill and smoke pot (Well, being intensely straightedge, I never did, but everyone else did). We would watch some really weird movie and everyone would just vegetate.....There used to be a thrill there for me, because of its novelty....I mean, yeah, that CAN be a good time every so often now (and it's absolutely necessary at times, I'll be the first to agree with that). But I've grown very tired of these kind of parties......I, personally, would LOVE TO do different stuff at a party, like dress up in costumes and script/act out a play in 1 hour or less, or discuss gothic poetry, or whatever...I don't want to just watch people get bombed and pass a bong around anymore while watching 'Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow".... It's just so fu*king boring to me... more than that, it's depressing, and I'd rather read a Russian novel....Then again, few understand the horrible power of 'Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow' until they've actually watched it! mwahahaha!!!!

The movie "Garden State" perfectly illustrates the kind of party that I've grown tired of....BTW, that movie is the PERFECT snapshot of what it's like to live in NJ as a mid-20's person in 2004. Great movie.

I don't want this post to seem like an exercise in self-pity or attention grabbing, because that's not the intention...I'm very happy in my life now....but it just seems like the more I advance into my 20's, the more hazy and confusing the world and life is becoming to me -- especially as I understand the world and life more clearly...??? Now that's an interesting sentence....

Hopefully, I'll feature less introspection next week! Ciao!